I’m hoping to start posting more… a lot more. I want to begin with the end. Today marked the end of a chapter of my life that I honestly did not plan on ending. I planned on it lasting at least long enough to be a part of my kids’ lives and possibly even further. Today I sold my Miata.

I’ve had to sell 2 cars that I had planned on having forever in my life. Both were great cars to own and brought tons of joy to my life as daily and leisurely drivers. The first one I had to get rid of because I wasn’t trying hard enough to do what I needed in order to maintain it. The second I had to sell due to others in my life actively working to interdict me from a position allowing me to complete my goals. This is a problem which will be remedied soon.

I don’t attach myself to many objects. I could even argue that I didn’t really attach myself to this car. What I did attach myself to was the idea that this was something I could give my children and family. I had a vision of hours of windy roads with my wife and kids. Personal time with each of them. The enjoyment of sharing an adventure with a single other person. It really feels like this was taken from me and I’m having a hard time with it. It feels like now I have nothing really special that I had created to pass along to my family. I have nothing that separates me from the dad next door. This is what hurts most.

I always know that a chapter has to end before another one can begin. If you know me, you know I’ll be working hard to make this next chapter something special. If you know me, you know it will be difficult to make it more special than the one I was creating with this car.